It's been quit some time since I've wrote a blog post or even took a look at my blog. I've been dealing with since January 1st of this year the loss of my son and my mother-in-law. My wife and I have cried and embraced one another through this hard time. I've been dealing with how to cope with this tragic and sudden loss of what could have been my future to pass on all that I've done in my life. I'm not giving up and my wife isn't either. We will have kids no matter if it takes me to the point where I'm drawing social security,haha,haha.
I've taken the last almost two weeks to get away with my wife and we finally last week layed our son and my mother-in-law to rest back in my wife's home in New Jersey. A heavy weight has been lifted from my shoulders knowing that they are buried with my wife's father and her brother and I have slept better in the last few days then I have at the beginning of the year. Taking that trip up there was a challenge with maybe one person that didn't want to give me the opportunity to do this and it pisses me off that they are selfish and when the day comes for them to be in my shoes, I hope they understand and feel what I've went through. (That is another story for another time.)
As I traveled back home I did quit a bit of thinking. I looked at where I'm at and where I need to go with what I've been doing in the last two years with this podcast. I have not made one cent from doing this in my time that I've put in with getting the opportunity to talk with amazing people from all over. I want to continue with that as I want to add and network with more people that podcast as I do. I use twitter more then I do facebook and it has been really helpful with connecting with people. I don't post or share from my Everett Lee Show facebook page on to my personal profile because it's not been working as I thought it would.
The only thing and the only responce I get from my personal profile is if I post something up like I tore my ACL running to the bathroom to take a shit. I get likes and comments and when I change my profile pic to something. When I repost a podcast,nothing. It pisses me off and I'm done with that. I just stick to my Everett Lee Show page to post stuff and I thank those who see it, comment and like on the content. The other half don't give me anything and it's sad.
The last month or so, I've added merchandise to my site and it hasn't taken off like I thought. It kills me inside that I put the time and work in to give something to people who follow me and the podcast to be able to support and show that I am here. I give back with this and it has made me nothing either. It kills me and eats me up inside that I just want to punch a hole in the wall and yell to the top of my lungs with rage. The only thing I would get out of that is I wouldn't be able to talk and my hand would hurt like hell with pain. That wouldn't solve anything. The thought that just crossed my mind right now is how many people will read this rant I'm typing away with bitching about not making any kind of profit that I want to support my wife and my family with so I can walk away from the other job that I do that I don't see doing the rest of my life.
I want the best for my family and now I'm pissed and ready to do something about it.
I'm taking the fucking bull by the horns and I'm riding it till the son of a bitch falls to it's knees. Here is the update in the title post I'm getting at now.
Lets take a shot at entertainment and put my own spin on it. The thought of going LIVE 5 days a week is ringing in my head. LIVE STREAM, Periscope come to mind to have interaction with people. More guest interviews with Q and A during LIVE STREAMING. A hr or couple of hrs of the Everett Lee Show during the week. Still looking for a Co-Host or two to jump right in with me and take an journey to parts unknown. Contact me through my email (everetthangout@gmail.com SubjectLine: COHOST) if your interested in being a part of this.
I will be later in the week re-doing my site and making some changes that I see need to be done. This blog needs some changes too since I'm typing about it as well. I spent a few hours just the other day redoing Everett's Hangout Studios,I like the new structure of moving this room around and making some changes.
That is much it for now. I want to throw this out while I'm thinking about it. If you haven't picked my book, Down and Bound: A Short Story Please pick it up. I'm working on a follow up to it and will be reissuing the first one when the follow up is close to being released.
You can get it here at this link,
Will see you on Tuesday for another podcast of The Everett Lee Show.
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